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FUUMA KYUNNNNNNN
sandii_x
I love youuuu
XD
- *sends lots of kisses*

Ya really. LOL.
I know~ :D
- Good! :x

I know la... :x you were secretly jealous that Parkur (aka CC) is my lover right!
Yes ):
- But you are my wife ^^ Isn't wife the best thing ever, I mean, well, bigger than lover anyway. :P

He said he chose me cause of my long(est) intro @ DCTP.
That's a lame reason.
- I know right LOL. Actually it's also because my English is awesome to him. Well, because I rarely make mistakes and he seems to like this fact.

If I stop talking to him, I think he will too.
But you currently have no reasons to stop talking to him right :x
- Nah, even if I don't talk to him, he will auto talk to me anyway. :| :| :|

Then he'll just fade away like all the other normal net friends.
Yeah so sad right? NGL I was down these few weeks because Pikachu-sensei fade away already..
- :( People busy! Don't mind! I'm sure he will talk to you again.. :(

Though you're different.
How am I different? :x
- Everything la! You so kind and nice and made up of awesome epic stuffs in the world.

I HATE PEOPLE LOOKING AT ME STUDY!!!!! Don't ask me why.
I won't ask because I once told you I was the same too, didn't I?
- Yeah! :D (Though I honestly don't remember :x)

Even if they like, just walk past the room, I WILL GET PISSED OFF :X
I'm totally the same.
-
So now I lock the door and all, and my dad gets pissed off (even though it's my room) and he goes: but half of my things are in your room so I have to go and take it. I'm so pissed off but he says BUT THIS IS MY HOUSE. Yeah fine. I hate it when people say that. my house your house. f.

Maybe I'll just get keys for my ahma house and then go there camp :@
If you think there is a better place for you to study, then you should :)
- I would've totally gone ahead and do that if there wasn't the tortoise there :V. It's smelly like woah, you stand 2 houses away and you can still smell it. Ngl. I mean, cause nobody go back clean and all la... then I alone go back then sure stink like what man.

Ya that shocked her sfm.
Haha kind of hate it that she's shocked because that means ITE is shitty to her and she's shocked that you wanna go :p
- Ya I know. I mean, ITE isn't really that. :/. I don't even. Heck, I already guess that she wants me to get a good education so I can yang her. :@.

Like heck, right till the end, no matter what she does, she's still my mum damnnit.
Sadly we couldn't choose our parents..
- Ya if not I sure choose my ahma :V. She rly don't bother you a lot and is awesome. Sigh my dad is so lucky.

And she's like, lacking the most basic manner of all by not greeting my ahma.
She needs to be burned in hell for this.
- I know, right?! I know it's manners and all but I don't greet either. I mean, only applies to my mother, father AND my mother's mother (just because my mum's mum is fcking rude another rude bitch). My mum and dad doesn't greet, so why must I greet them? They need a fing taste of their own medcine. Period.

She keeps claiming that my ahma is out there to sow discord between my mum and I.
She just doesn't want to admit that she can't get well along with you by herself.
- Not going to lie but NOTHING GOOD EVER COMES OUT OF HER MOUTH! All she knows hwo to do is make snide comments, and of course she does win I mean, cause she's supporting the house and all. I guess this is where money is over everything else comes in. Heck it!

And this is the only (crazy) side I'm showing to you, dearie.
:)
- Hope you won't have to see it sometime soon again. |: because it's still not good to let someone see your nasty side.

BUT I WORK WHEN I DO.
Yup~
- You totally understand me ;__;

What ever you want, I buy for you.
Parents love to say that but they don't realize we're not telling them everything about all we want because we know it's impossible/unreasonable to request for so many stuffs.
- Actually I also don't really want much what :( just a few stuffs like FOOD (aka chocolates which is less than a dollar), Japanese classes. And well, money. HAHA. But they never do realise that I NEVER asked them for money when I go out... I always use the money I save from my pocket money. And they get all edgy when I ask them for money. Sigh. My ahma also say that. When my brother come back from army, she nvr ask abt his well being and all, just buy what he wants. My ahma think its not doing her duty as a parent.

I ADVANCED IN TWO MONTHS.
Elite :D
- *sends hugs* XD.

CAUSE THAT COUSIN (name auston) NEVER EVEN FRICKING ASK ME FOR IT. I HATE IT.
Who doesn't hate it when someone wants to borrow something from you and doesn't ask you personally for it.
- Everyone! I was scolded by my parents and all because I said that. And my dad say, AIYA, your mum ask ALSO THE SAME. Wtf is not the same!!!!! Why won't people ever understand that stupid fact?!?!?!? Damn.

But my mum never waited for my consent anyway.
I hate it, that sucks.
- Sigh, they think its the same cause my mum is the biggest anw.

Anyway, my mum nvr put my book back properly somemore.
Idiot asshole.
- I know right... So ass.

She just dump it. And leave it there.
If my mum did that I would be like tearing the whole house down, but at least she would put them nicely on my table I guess.
- She put "nicely" on top of my dc mangas la, but still not put nicely when she's the one who take it. |: . And I've been asking her for DAYS to put it nicely (note: 1 week) and she hear me say it only she pretend she nvr hear... -.-. My dad offered to do it for me la but meh, he wasn't even the one who did it, so why should he do it for her?! Anyway, I did it myself. At the end.

HE COME MY HOUSE, BANG THE FCKING DOOR, BUT DON'T MAKE A FCKING NOISE then make my ahgonng so jing zhang THEN FALL DOWN CAUSE HE DK WHO THE F IS IT AT THE DOOR.
Hate this kind of people.
- I hate my cousin overall. He so meh. Hate him. Anyway, I'm already hating him because he didn't ASK me for it. Like f up only.

AND THE FCKING MAID THAT COME WITH HIM WALK SO FCKING SLOW LIKE SO FCKED UP OK.
Maid needs to be slapped until her face rot.
- She damn diao can! Momo bite her only she whine like f. -.-. Please la, who nvr got bitten by momo before. She keep ask my maid do it for her f up another bitch.

I'm eternally grateful for this fact.
That's good :)
- You know I will always be! *sends lots of kisses*

Everytime I quarrel with my parents, a little of me die inside.
If I were you I wouldn't be able to take it until this day.. I would have probably suicide/ran away from house, seriously.
- I don't have a choice, do I? |: My ahma totally supports me of going to her house cause she know it's so f up to be here but... for now. Nah. After O's. :).

My ahma respects my decision a whole lot and doesn't make a huge fuss of everything.
From what you always tell me about your ahma, I can totally see that~
- Sometimes she's irritating but I guess not as irritating as my mum.

I don't want a high paying job because I don't want to yang my mum.
Neither do I want to yang my dad, he'll die soon anyway.
- Your dad is one crappy excuse as a human being. Meh.

I pray my brother get a wife like my mum, so she can suffer like my ahma.
I'll pray too x:
- My ahma is praying too XD infact she was the one who suggested it first lor :x

She keep say my ahma won't die so easily cause she so strong.
She has such a bad mouth, beware.. 人在做天在看.
- Love how you happen to always say the same thing as my ahma. o.O.

But who knows in the future she might be gone?! :(
Maybe you might be the one who'll be gone first? :p
Cause you're still young.. still studying.. still a lot of things for you to explore.. many many friends to make in the future.. XD
- Doesn't matter. :x. Many friends to make but only one good friend forever :D XD.

I love youuuu
...
sandii_x
Ya really. LOL.
I know la... :x you were secretly jealous that Parkur (aka CC) is my lover right! Hahaha. He said he chose me cause of my long(est) intro @ DCTP. Anyway, that thread got locked because my stupid three baka's went in there and spam like nobody's business and it wasn't PG13 anymore. -_-.

But you know I love you the most. :P. So don't worry. *hugs*. If I stop talking to him, I think he will too. Then he'll just fade away like all the other normal net friends. Though you're different. Besides, he has a girlfriend IRL. Having me as a lover is making him a cheating bastard. Hahaha.

This morning~~~
I was thinking a lot (again?!) about me being lazy and all. And then I remember how much my mum screamed at me for not studying which REALLY irritated me. I HATE PEOPLE LOOKING AT ME STUDY!!!!! Don't ask me why. I DON'T LIKE PEOPLE TO JUST SEE ME STUDY. Even if they like, just walk past the room, I WILL GET PISSED OFF :X Cause they know I'm studying. AND I HATE IT. I just want to be ALONE ALONE AND ALONE. Maybe I'll just get keys for my ahma house and then go there camp :@

So I just (half casually) told my mum: Mummy, I want go ITE. Ya that shocked her sfm. At first she's all like, it's your life, do whatever you want. But I know she's worrying like mad. Not worrying about my future, but worrying about her old age. Because of the f up things she keep do to me, I don't give a f about her.

Actually, I say this but deep inside me I really won't do it. Like heck, right till the end, no matter what she does, she's still my mum damnnit. I hate it. Why is a selfish bitch like her my mum!? I don't deny that I'm not at all selfish, but heck, she's way more selfish than I am. And she's like, lacking the most basic manner of all by not greeting my ahma. She keeps claiming that my ahma is out there to sow discord between my mum and I. I believe my own eyes, dearie. I clearly see you not calling her. I clearly see you not respecting her. I clearly see you lying the f out of me. STOP IT!!!!

WHY IS EVERYONE LYING TO ME?! Okay, I'm crying now, so I'm quite emotionally unstable. And this is the only (crazy) side I'm showing to you, dearie. I calmed down. Anyway, in the car, my mum just kept saying: You don't want to study because you are addicted to your computer computer computer. You don't do any work at all in the afternoon. Ya fine I don't. I don't deny I'm addicted to the computer, BUT I WORK WHEN I DO. What do you know? And she goes~

What ever you want, I buy for you. You want to go Japanese class, I let you go. I HATE IT. I buy for you << books. And it's like, those one dollar kind. More than one dollar she will bargain like siao. What for... BESIDES, I CAN PAY THAT MYSELF. Regarding the Japanese class, DO YOU HAVE ANY FING IDEA HOW MUCH I BEGGED FOR IT?! AND HECK, IF ONLY MY FATHER WASN'T SUCH A USELESS PIECE OF SHIT CRAPPY BASTARD HE WOULD BE PAYING. Infact, my mum wasn't even at all supportive. MY DAD PAYED FOR ME FIRST. And honestly, not trying to be bhb and all BUT, normal courses are like, four months. I ADVANCED IN TWO MONTHS. There are like, three stages (for pre advance so it's like pre ad 1 pre ad 2 pre ad 3), and EACH is four months. I took TWO MONTHS EACH FOR PRE 1 AND PRE 2. WHICH MEANS I ACTUALLY COMPLETED TWO FING COURSES IN FOUR MONTHS. IT SAVED YOU FOUR FING MONTHS OF FEES YOU GET IT?!

Everything all my father pay... FUCK IT. When I wanted my meitanteiconan! mangas, my dad payed for me. Ngl but it was fcking ex. ~50 books, 50 x 5 you count la... think how much. I was sold ~ 100+ dollars I think cause second hand and all. I love them. So f much. My mum only scold scold scold... then suddenly my stupid aussie cousin come and she's all like, Peijun, lend it to him la. Being a selfish bitch, I'm like FUCK NO.

why? CAUSE THAT COUSIN (name auston) NEVER EVEN FRICKING ASK ME FOR IT. I HATE IT. If you want something, ASK FOR IT BASTARDS. I hate it. If you want to know something, ASK. DON'T FRICKING ASK OTHERS TO DO IT FOR YOU. But my mum never waited for my consent anyway. She just fricking take my manga and lent it to him. GAAAH THAT PISSES ME OFF SO F MUCH. Anyway, my mum nvr put my book back properly somemore. -_-. She just dump it. And leave it there. like f lor. YOU TAKE YOU PUT BACK. NO WAY AM I LENDING HIM /selfish bitch is selfish. Unless he properly asks me for it.

Damnnit lor, you know that cousin of mine MAKE MY AHGONNG FALL DOWN???? HE COME MY HOUSE, BANG THE FCKING DOOR, BUT DON'T MAKE A FCKING NOISE then make my ahgonng so jing zhang THEN FALL DOWN CAUSE HE DK WHO THE F IS IT AT THE DOOR. AND THE FCKING MAID THAT COME WITH HIM WALK SO FCKING SLOW LIKE SO FCKED UP OK. SO F UP LIKE WTF OK.

/calms down. Anyway, back to topic, my mum keep say she let me learn whatever I want. Hell yeah, as you can see, every f thing IS MY FATHER PAY ONE. Right until he squandered all the fcking money away and everything my mum pay. My mum big lor. But ya, I must admit she sure under stress la pay for my ahma ahgonng and for us cause of my stupid father. Actually my father is pretty awesome. I like him, if only he had money. -_-. If my dad never started it first, I wouldn't have anything. I'm eternally grateful for this fact. My dad understnads me, justl like how my ahma does. I really love him for that.

I feeling so f up right now. Everytime I quarrel with my parents, a little of me die inside. I don't know why I do, but it is me crying everytime I start quarreling. I hate to quarrel, although I admit sometimes I started it. BUT HAY, I'M TALKING ABOUT THE TRUTH THAT NO ONE SEEMS TO ACCEPT! I feel so sad. I'm really so sad. I don't want to cry. I don't want to quarrel. But I don't want my mum like this. I hate it.

They keep say: see her ahma POISON HER so she will quarrel with us... SHUT THE FUCK UP AND STOP BLAMING MY AHMA FOR EVERYTHING!!! My ahma respects my decision a whole lot and doesn't make a huge fuss of everything. She so fricking selfless not like YOU, BITCH. I don't want a high paying job because I don't want to yang my mum. That's all. I don't know what to do when she gets old. Oh wait, she's going to live with my brother. Freedom for me yayz. I pray my brother get a wife like my mum, so she can suffer like my ahma.

No matter how old one person is, SHE IS NOT THAT STRONG. She keep say my ahma won't die so easily cause she so strong. FUCK YOU. She's feeling so terrible inside just that no one fcking cares and I don't have any fcking money to help her. I could ask ahgonng to help me, but yeah, I don't want to do that, because he's my friend. Not my ATM machine. What should I do??

Excuses, I know. To say hearing her irritating voice is just... out of tuned instrument to my ears. I just hate it. I hate everything.

I only love my kae. :(. But who knows in the future she might be gone?! :(.

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